and is anybody out there?
I've got a really, really long wish list and I keep adding to it. I think I just figured out that my list is probably longer than the amount of time I can feasibly assume I will be spending on this earth. I guess I will just have to figure out a way to live some of them vicariously through others. Thus the quote above feels just about right today.
And then there is this. Some days it just feels like I'm invisible. A shadow that occupies no space at all and that no one is really listening. Questions get asked of me and I respond in kind but seems as soon as I start talking I'm being tuned out. This happened to me last night among a group of friends and as we parted ways I couldn't help but wonder why I bother at all. Why do people ask 'how things are?' if they honestly don't care or want to know. Are our lives so full and crammed that there is simply no room to take on another's daily ups and downs? I don't expect anyone to swoop in and rescue me or become some sort of super-hero to save the day; but just a few minutes of being heard would be nice.
Shrugging off all expectations and just accepting the limits of being human in the giving and the taking and keeping a smile on my face regardless of what is going on. I really do have much to be grateful for. It is a gorgeous fall day here in the land of 10,000 lakes and I'm loving it. The windows are all open to the fresh air and I'm being entertained by the site of our dog rolling around the patch of sun coming through the front window. I'll take life's simple pleasures for the gifts that they are no matter how small or insignificant they appear to be.